Hey, I’ve been going to therapy for a year now and have spoken about a multitude of different issues I’m facing, and for the most part I’ve got over or at least learned how to cope with most of them.

But there’s one issue I’ve been facing since before day one that I literally am at a loss with.

Me and my therapist call them “episodes”.

I have no idea how to describe this, but basically, they can last anywhere between 30 seconds and 10 minutes, the after effects usually lasting around an hour.

They feel like being hit by a mental freakin tsunami. It all starts when I hear, see, smell, taste or touch what is seemingly a random thing. Like I had one ten mins ago watching a tiktok, and it happened when I seen someone making bread? Ik, random.

It feels like a panic attack kinda?

If I were to list symptoms, I’d say- Anxiety Fear Panic Terror Sense of impending doom Dread Unpreparedness Dizziness Fainting feeling Nausea Needing to evacuate bowels

And my reaction is usually- Get in a corner Eyes widen or close right shut Shaking A few tears.

I don’t know what this is, I think it’s a mental thing? Like I have Cptsd, but part of me thinks it’s physical? But then why would I have all the mental feelings? It makes no sense and ig this is a last ditch attempt to see if anyone experiences the same thing or knows what it might be