Well i think i can't stand it anymore

Damn hormones and puberty i wish that there wasn't those ok im homophobic and those things have ruin my whole life if im playing a game i I can't concentrate in if Something weird happens my brain will say ohhh thats gay or bi that's gay or bi but i know that is doesn't make sense why is something that isn't sus and now we have the biggest problems im drinking water from the bottle or glass and for some reason my brain still saying that's gay or bi and that stuff but i know that doesn't make any sense but still is like i have a second person inside me is really bad i can't live a normal life all my life is that's gay or bi i can't stand it anymore and now im still having the same words while im writing He keeps saying that this is gay or bi i know is really complicated and weird but idk why this is happening i want this to stop o can't stand it im wondering how im still alive