I don’t know what to do, and don’t feel like I have many to talk to, so I’m just going to talk to a bunch of strangers on the internet. Maybe this will do me some good.

I don’t know how to make friends. I don’t know who I like to be around. I meet people, and I may love spending time with them or getting to know them, but I struggle heavily with committing. The idea of hanging out with someone outside of a setting where there is something else needing to be done, or we are there for a different reason than socializing (i.e. work, school, etc.), is highly stressful and anxiety-inducing to me. I feel like I don’t know how to act or what to do and I feel deeply uncomfortable. Not necessarily because there is something up with the person, but just something wrong with me. I quite literally feel like I am the problem, that I am doing something wrong or that something is wrong with me. I never struggled with this in the past I don’t think. I had a group of friends all throughout middle and high school, and it was never a problem for me to hangout with them outside of work or school. I think maybe the issue could be that I don’t trust people or feel insecure around a lot of people, and that I don’t feel people like me all that much. So I tend to avoid situations where there is pressure to “entertain” someone. I don’t know if this makes sense, but this problem is making my life very lonely and me very sad. I don’t know how to handle this. Thanks so much.