I had this really weird dream when I was 9 or 10 (I'm almost 17 now).

I basically dreamt that all children in the world were in the wrong country. so children in germany were in China, for example. and Earth had to hit something so that every child could go back to their parents and countries basically. I was half awake while dreaming this. and I was the point that the world had to hit.

while being half awake, I sat up in my bed and basically saw the world coming for me, and I was kinda scared and tried to get away from it. idk how the dream ended, but I remember hearing a female voice that was trying to help me and give advice. I couldn't remember what the voice was saying as soon as they did. I just forgot instantly.

I started to hear that voice when I was awake, too. I always describe it as a gummy ball hitting a wall and then multiplying. so there were like hundreds of gummy balls, and those balls resembled the voice. because the voice was basically echoing in my head.

I also never understood what it said, but I feel like it was a helpful voice ykwim. at first, it started when everything was quiet. in class, for example, when we took a test or smt.

I always tried to hum or something so it would go away, which sometimes worked.

I think this went on for a few years, and then it just stopped.

I started hearing it again about 2 years ago or smt. but this time, I would also hear my own thoughts echoing. but it wasn't in the same voice that I hear for my own thoughts. and it also just sounded really weird. it always feels like I have fog in my head, so it's basically a background noise. the voice sometimes sounds panicky or with a weird mean laughing undertone. sometimes that voice that is similar to mine overlaps with that female voice. but it's ways my thoughts. in my head, I'm panicking, but from the outside, I look completely normal.

it kind of feels like I'm in a bubble. but i don't feel derealisation it's just as if my head is like a weird foggy bubble.

it also happens in basically any situation. it happens in the shower, when I'm just laying in my bed or even when I'm with people.

I try to distract myself. Sometimes I just panic more, sometimes I just forget about it kind of and it disappears, or I sometimes manage to distract myself and make it stop on my own.

I have no idea what this is.

my mom always says that it might have something to do with hear because she mentally and physically abused me and it might be some form of trauma but I don't really think that's it because the dream and the voice don't really relate to that.

idk, it's just so weird, but I don't think it's schizophrenia bc the voice doesn't tell me anything, and I don't really have hallucinations.

I see stuff in the corner of my eye, yes, and sometimes I think something moved or I saw a person or something like that, but I'm just paranoid sometimes.

does anyone have an idea what this could be?

I can go more into detail about my history or something, but idk what could be important so you guys would have to ask for something specific, I guess.