They all say you should "speak up" and "reach out". To who? I don't have family or friends. I don't have anyone in real life, and nobody stays. It's too much to share with anyone and I don't have access to professional support. My heart is breaking everyday and I'm tired of the years I've spent with this emptiness.

It just never feels like it's going to get better

I'm tired of living with these ghosts and living each day fighting an invisible war nobody sees. It's inexplicable and no words will do the pain justice; attempts at articulation come out meek and make it feel as though it was nothing

likely due to being surrounded by the wrong kind of people.

I've been doing the heavy lifting myself but there's only so much you can do on your own.

I'm not a fan of self-limiting language, but honestly? Sometimes I just feel broken.