I was diagnosed as bipolar in my early 30s and have been trying to improve myself both prior to said diagnosis as well as after the fact. I went to therapy for a few years, have taken (and still am taking) medication. I was taking Sertraline, Lithium, and Risperidone, but am now only taking Sertraline because I determined that the latter two medications were completely ruining my sex drive/life in general. I stopped taking both Lithium and Risperidone months ago and haven't noticed any substantial differences in behavior aside from being able to enjoy sex again.

Recently I have tried to do more things without my health provider to improve myself. I am listening to positive-sounding music as much as possible to lift my spirits. I am watching videos on YouTube that promote positive/grateful thinking. I am slowly but surely starting to become more positive about my life as a whole, but am still having trouble with a few aspects.

I have struggled with my weight and overeating for almost my entire life and have recently started fasting from 7 p.m. to 7 a.m. six days a week with Saturday being my cheat day. I cancelled my 24 Hour Fitness membership last week after six years of going because I am no longer content with using their facilities due to the men's locker room being frequented by men who don't cover up after leaving the shower/while changing. Their showers and toilets border on being rancid all the time, which is also extremely off-putting, though not as bad as the constant nudity. And their saunas are almost always broken. That and I grew weary of having to wait for 10-15 minutes to use a machine/do a workout. So now I have decided to start using my HOA's gym. It's smaller and only has a few machines, but it will serve the purpose. I have also modified my diet to the best of my ability, though that will always be a work in progress.

I also have a severe sex addiction which has led to some absolutely idiotic decisions on my part over the course of the last decade, namely sleeping with very loose women and burning through cash. I am trying to gradually wean myself off of this behavior as well because I know that the risk of contracting STDs and going through my savings will always loom large. I also watch porn often, a behavior I know is a direct result of my old man watching porn in front of me when I was younger. It's not healthy and I know that I need to either quit doing so or at least reduce how much I watch it. That and I follow a massive list of models on both Facebook and Instagram and have raised my standards to very unrealistic levels as to who I will date.

My overall attitude still needs work. I have always been a highly opinionated/combative person, which, combined with my occasional explosive anger, caused most of my past relationships to end. I know that this is also a result of my father's abusive behavior towards my mother, my brother, and myself, and am trying to work on it. I am turning 40 on December 1st and want to become a better person. I've made my fair share of mistakes and have a very long list of regrets. But I don't want my legacy to be that of the world's greatest pariah simply because I didn't set forth the effort necessary to fix myself.

Now that the above rant is complete, what does everyone else do to improve their behavior/attitude?