It’s everything. It’s overwhelming sadness, knowing good things will never last. It’s this world, the feeling that nothing will ever be okay no matter what job I have or how stable my life is, everything can go wrong in a matter of seconds. I hate the system and I hate working constantly and losing out on time with people I love doing things I enjoy. I hate working constantly to no avail and for a life that just never gets there. I don’t even know what to say or how to put my feelings into words because this isn’t a good representation of how I feel but I feel like I need to rant somewhere. I constantly have the urge to just end it all because what’s the point if I’m only going to wake up to the same grim reality everyday.