I have nobody to talk to, to hang out with, to care about me, I can’t do it anymore. I’m always told to put myself out there and talk to people, when I do it seems I always am closer to them than they are to me. Nobody reaches out first, just to ask how I’m doing, to make plans, nothing. Then I start talking to someone, I get my hopes up and get really happy. They seems to want the same as me, until they pretty much tell me they don’t. It was either a ‘joke’ or I misread signals. But it’s so damn hard not to when nobody else want to talk/be with you. I’ve lived as a loner for so long and I was fine with it, until I realized that nobody would give a fuck if anything happened to me. And now, they still don’t. I’m always the sole one to reach out to anybody, and they either ignore me, or ‘aren’t available’. You can say to just ‘learn to love yourself’ or ‘the time will come when it’s right’ but that’s so much damn easier said. I can’t keep going on like this, and maybe I won’t at this point. It seems nobody will care all that much anyway. Here I am, so desperate I have to post to strangers online just to get my feelings out there cause no one else will listen. I’m done.