So you’ve made it past the title so here’s the thesis of text. I’ll apologise now for grammar mistakes.

Warning you now I’m about to dump months worth of info and thoughts onto this page so it’s structure will probably be all over the place.

The main topic and feeling is Jealousy; it’s a hell of an emotion, sucks when it happens and sucks when you have to feel it. Except this time around it feels different and I don’t know how to process it, hopefully reddit may be able to help me.

Here’s the story for context this will mainly be about relationships btw: I have a friend group from highschool it consists of two guys and three girls and we’re all 20 years old. We’re all good friends and we mainly hang out in person or online playing some games on various platforms.

From now on I’ll label everyone as A-B-C etc. for less confusion.

• Girl A & Guy A are dating each other. Great couple, I was the wingman for Guy A and we talk every other day as we’ve best mates for 8 years

• Girl B has their own boyfriend since high-school, she’s in uni so she doesn’t interact with the group as much but we all love them to death so we understand they’re busy.

• Girl C is single she’s Bi with a female lean. Hot/cute af, smart when necessary, funny and can be rather goofy at times, whenever I’m around them I feel great and it’s clear I’m head over heels for them. So pretty much a ten in my books. (You can probably see who’s the FL in this thesis)

• Guy B is Me, single, standard build, 6.3ft, 74kg, polite, funny most of the time, hopeless romantic and it’s quite obvious, tad awkward around n ew people but can talk well if I spend five minutes with them. I like to read, listen to music and game.

The problem: - Guy C is single, nice dude, short king, funny, he’s 18 years old, built af- like actually works out so fair enough, I have yet to find a genuinely bad thing about him yet, a kind person but I’d chalk that up to being younger then everyone as he’s just got that vibe. Virgin too so he’s totally pure. This is probably just teasing from the group but he’s described as a femboy idk how lol.

Now here’s the deal. Guy C is a person Girl C introduced into the group not to long ago, Guy C and Guy A met next bonded well over Valorant and other games of the like. So naturally Guy C and A started playing valorant in their own time along with Girl C who also plays.

Girl C and Guy C just so happen to vibe well with each other and flirt Incessantly as you would when that happens.

I meet him for the first time on call playing overwatch with Guy A to fill this trio. He finds out I’m interested in Girl C from Guy A. He’s asks how I feel about FL straightforwardly when Guy A goes to have dinner or something. I reply that it’s mainly an unrequited love and that I haven’t actually confessed it but FL gets the gist of it. (They Ended up Friend zoning me hard with hints and signs) [I know my part in this situation should end here but still I keep getting in the way it seems]

Guy C acknowledges this and says that’s unlucky king, this leads into totally wholesome conversation that goes deeper into the subject of FL. I end up saying that she’s pretty cool and I feel great when she’s around and quite the opposite when she leaves and the group parts ways. We continue playing games and all end up going to bed.

Next day I find out that FL and Guy C flirt a lot but aren’t actually interested in dating each other. They’ve formed some kind of ‘situation-ship’ as Guy A and C describe it to me on separate occasions. Guy A notices that I’ve been getting jealous and tells me, I notice myself and acknowledge it. So logically I go to Guy C and tell him the next time I see him in person. he reacts as a nice guy would and accepts it and asks why. I think about it and say it’s mostly because he is a new person to the group and I personally have barely known him for more then a few weeks and he’s gotten closer to the FL then I have ever been able too. I state I’m quite confused and jealous of him whilst quite proud too for some reason “like good on em for doing so well”.

He takes it onboard and tells me he’s not looking to date her at this time. Conversation ends here pretty much.

Fast forward to more recent times: Girl C and Guy C still flirt but not as much that I see/hear it all the time. Guys A-B-C are on group call with “the boys” (wider friend group of Guy A’s) one the boys (might actually have been Guy C hard to tell new voices apart) says that we should make a bet on when Guy C loses his card, closest to the date wins. The line “That would of course mean that he’d actually have to bag a partner” is said by someone. He retorts “hey! I’ve got someone in mind so maybe three months.” * I shut up completely for a few seconds and say “if this is about Girl C let’s stop this convo now” He says sorry Guy B and the conversation changes. [*I genuinely can’t remember what he said to the letter but he said 3 months for certain]

My chest hurts more.. I know it’s jealousy and something else I want to but can’t identify. Either way I feel bad that I might be C*ckblocking this kid with Girl C. I feel like I’m Dracula in that meme from hotel Transylvania where Mavis is hugging Johnny on the dance floor and Drac looks heartbroken.

So here’s the end of this thesis where I get to the brass tacks of the situation.

1. I must admit that I’m jealous of Guy C.
2. I need to deal with the fact that I’ve got an unrequited love for FL
3. That just because I write all of this on reddit doesn’t mean that I’ll feel better about this situation.

If you.. the reddit user, ended up reading all of this congrats and thank you for reading my rant about my feels. I’ll admit it’s weird for me to open up this much, let alone post it onto reddit.

What do you think about this situation I’m in? Are you able to identify wtf I’m feeling right now and how I may deal with it, cause your guess is as good as mine.

[On the of chance that one of my friends finds this account I’ll deny this ever existed.]