I started struggling really badly years ago. When I got to college my anxiety got so bad I had stomach aches every day and after the worst anxiety attack I've ever had I finally reached out to my tutor. I've been told my whole life that if I have an issue I can trust a teacher. I broke down and told her everything, I cried infront of someone for the first time in years.As soon as I left she told my entire class my deeply personal thoughts and what she thought of it.

After being so vulnerable and hating everything so much I left for a different college and tried to get help from the start. I've been ignored and criticised to the point I dread it, especially one class I really dislike where the teacher constantly criticises me.

I don't want to be like this all I want is help, I've quite literally begged for therapy and support, my parents don't really get it so don't say much and I don't really have friends because of how isolated I've become. It's so tiring and disheartening.

Sorry for the rant, it's nice to scream into the void.