I wanted to make a post regarding the way home life is for me.

My brother, who is 33, is a paranoid schizophrenic, and he is the worst thing in my life right now. He has episodes and goes off on me, my mom and my girlfriend who lives with us as well. Last night was the worst yet. He barged in my room while my gf and I were asleep, in a fit of rage, telling my gf to leave. Side note, I am also a father and I get my son every weekend and he was asleep in his bed in my room as well, until my brother barged in. I am so close to my breaking point with him. I won't fight him, unless he throws the first punch. I have so much anxiety and I feel like I have to constantly watch my back around him, because his psychotic episodes could happen at any point. I am exhausted. I have been awake since what happened, but I have to tend to my son throughput the day. I hate living like this with so much fear and anxiety. He's nowhere near the same person he used to be when we were kids. I'm older, 35. I just wanted to write this out and tell others about my story and what I am going through. I wish I could move out, but I currently don't have a job. But I am going to be starting one as soon as they figure out when I can start my training. The sooner I can save up money and get a place, the better.