She broke up with me like 3 months ago. she was my first girlfriend and i was her first boyfriend. our relationship lasted around 1.5 years. i know its not that much but its still some time. in this time i did my real best. sure i can think about some things i did bad but yeah. the point is that i cant get over it for some reason. while i claim to be over it its still a weird feeling. i cant stop myself from thinking about our past. something i do very often is that i always imagine a conversation for the unrealistic possibility that she might ask me to come back. I also cant stop myself from looking on discord if shes online and all of that. it really makes me question if i will even find someone again etc. all of that. i know that i didnt treat her really bad. the only things that i can think of what i did wrong were a few imaturity things and that bcs of my dad i sometimes dont have time. But besides that i cant think of anything. I made as much time for her as i could, put her infront of my friends, spend a lot of money (she didnt want me to do that i just did it anyways bcs i loved her rally much), always apologized bcs i didnt want the relationship to break bcs of and argument and it even went as far as playing bad on purpose when we played something just so she doesnt feel bad again. now that i am not together with her anymore i can deffinatly see that she has some toxic things on her but still. its so danm hard for me to move on. i feel like garbage most of the time bcs i dont know what to do. I still want to have someone. but im not good looking or anything really. sometimes i just wish i wouldnt be me. every free second my mind jumps to her. and every second that i spend playing something or even when im sick in bed i feel so danm useless and that i dont do anything to maby find someone else. its just so hard for me to move on. does anyone have some advice?