Anything I go through is traumatic. It doesn’t matter if it wasn’t supposed to be it always ends up that way. I’ve had PTSD from all of it. And it’s never been helped. I’ve beg & begged for help and nothing. Still nothing. I’m in so much pain everyday. I’m 25 and been self harming since I was about 8. And it progressively gets worse over time. I can’t go in public with out people seeing my thighs or neck. And it just makes me have anxiety to even leave the house anymore. Idk what else to do. I’m numb anymore. & I just feel like it’s my time. Idk how to do it anymore but I’ll figure it out. Someone can only hold so much in side them & experience so much.