And you're not having sex because you dont have anybody to have sex with?

Honestly, the downside of masturbation is that ITS NOT SEX. I more or less masturbate for the health benefits than for pleasure. Nowadays I would rather have a lot of sex to the point where Im complaining about doing it too much or being bothered to have sex all the time vs jerking off 4 or 5 times in a day or something. Jerking off all the time does get boring so not doing it for a day or two is fine with me. I have to force myself sometimes to get it in because I dont feel like it. Plus Im sexually frustrated because Im NOT doing it at all. Plus I sort of am wavering in and out of a sort of depression that Im covering up which has my sex drive low right now

It actually bothers me that I spend more time with my hand sexually than other people. The universe and me need to change this.