Hi everyone! I am looking for a 3 (or even 4?) part series with a pretty rough and gritty femshep that I read ages ago. I can remember that she smoked cigars, played the guitar and had a faible for dive bars. I think Liara was often called "blue", but I might mix that up. The series dealed majorly with sheps PTSD. I think each part covered the story of one game, with a slight diversion from canon in the third installment (I think). Each part had multiple tens of chapters. I only remember that it was very well written, and that the author mentioned having health issues a few times.

I loved the series when I read it, but I cant seem to find it. I think I originally found it on A3O, but it seems to be elusive when I try to find it now. If anyone has an idea, please tell me!