Back in college I used to run a little massage parlor out of my dorm and later my apartment for extra cash. 50 bucks for 1.5 hours from an amateur giving a hot oil massage. I like to think I was pretty good at it and I worked hard to learn and practice. Half the time it was closer to therapy than massage. Just two people in a warm room, with nice smelling oils, where I treated anything said as privileged. I miss that deeply sensual but also personal intimacy. The occasional gentle moan from a person allowing themselves to relax for the first time in forever.

It later became my "boyfriend power" across multiple relationships and I used it to care for my partners in more ways than one. Kind of a stepping stone for the relationship if they were comfortable enough to let me give them a massage and then later a "happy ending." I always laughed after they orgasmed because it was always the same. They'd start out with whatever tension they had when I started the massage. Being mindful of coverage around their glutes and high thighs I'd focus on deep tissue massage to really get to the heart of what their physical tension was. Use Reiki to unlock lymph nodes and work out tender spots. Then I'd ask them if they wanted to roll over to do their front (I never had a "no" but was always anticipating it), apply more coverage for their breasts and adjust existing to cover their pelvis, then I'd work their front. I always ended with a neck massage getting at those stubborn spots between their neck and base of their skull. Then I'd take my hands off their neck, walk around, kneel down next to their shoulder/ elbow and say their name. Usually it'd take a moment for them to rouse from their massage drunk state, blink a couple times and look at me. And then I'd say "I've kept this fairly professional up to this point but if you wanted anything "EXTRA" now is the time." And I'd gently set my hand on their abdomen just above their pelvis and wait.... It's not polite to kiss and tell but I used to laugh and think to myself "if she ever got more relaxed I'd be able to pour her into a hot cup of tea."

Now that I'm single... I miss it.

Everytime I see a gal roll her neck and rub her shoulder, my fingers twitch and I think to myself "I could help with that... But I can't." It seems a shame to let this skill die on the vine due to a lack of a permanent partner. I don't think I'd ever charge again glances up at subreddit name especially under these circumstances.

What do you ladies think?