I feel embarrassed to ask the question. I suffer from chronic, extreme anxiety (related to certain traumatic events in my past) and one of the only things which can bring it down is a certain form of almost grazing touch. Even without any kind of deep tissue muscle massages, I could lay blissfully for hours as someone moves their hands across my upper body (my shoulders/arms/back in particular) drawing patterns or shapes with their hands or whatever motion occurs to them. I imagine most people would find this to be an excruciating almost tickling sensation but to me it’s heaven. Is this a service which professional masseuses provide?

Alternatively, is there any kind of hands free motorized device which will give me this sensation?