As a kid I dreamed of being strong

I got what I wanted, I was blessed with good genetics and talent and put the time into my arts (judo and boxing)

My goal was always at least 1 MMA match but most people simply lose the moment I feel like winning, I e been complimented by pros and people who have been to the Olympics as having great potential

I had my first boxing tournament I technically lost but even my opponent after told me he thought I won (he dropped out after the first round in the second bout) h was a cool guy and deserves all the respect in the world for telling me this

Idk how I feel anymore about achieving power and skill, it used to mean so much to me the drive is dieing my want to fight is going away

It's almost like I've lost a major purpose and idk who to talk to about it, I could stop now or I could push for more