Myself(39F) and husband(36M) have been married for 12 years. Lately, I'm just over being married to him. I can't even pinpoint the issue, it's just our life in general. We have two kids and they are absolutely why I'm still here.

We've definitely had our issues. I've caught him talking to other women more than once, he struggles with his mental health and his depression almost caused him to leave once. He hated himself so much at the time he really thought we would all be better off without him. We worked through these with therapy abd i feel it really helped.

I absolutely have my faults as well. I can be very indifferent about a lot of things, whereas he needs reassurance from me that I just don't give to him all the time. We are very much in a consistent routine with life, kids, jobs, ect. But we still make time for dates and alone time.

But lately, I'm just not feeling it and idk how else to describe it. I feel I could 100% do life by myself. But I know it would break our kids hearts. And I honestly believe if I left, it would break him. So I'm still here. Our sex life is very active and we fulfill each other in that way.

But I'm not being fulfilled somewhere and I don't know why or how to resolve this. I don't want to tell him because I don't want to hurt him. I still care about him as a person and my children's father. But I feel the true love is/has faded. I find myself dreaming of leaving or what it would be like to be with someone else.

This may all sounds shitty but it's how I feel and I know if I keep letting this fester inside of me, it will boil over eventually.

Tl;dr- no major issues, but I'm just not that into my husband anymore.