it changes and sometimes turns into anger but many times i am like ok what if women don't want to date me i am starting to think that maybe i don't want to be with them since they always ignore me is like "hey i just want one of u to love me and i am offering you love, someone who tries to make u laugh, loyalty, a good heart, average looking, trying to make u happy and intelligence are u tellung me i am not worth?" and honestly i can't handle this shit i can't wait until maybe in many years one realizes that i am worthy, no and what happens with my feelings? i am living something that makes no sense to me and i know that if i am dating a girl i feel like this has sense, i feel good, i am tired i just want a bit of affection i am tired of my fucking depression, anxiety and intrusive thoughts i just want someone to love me