i have been bullied and made fun of since i was a kid, never had a gf (at least i kissed one girl) i keep having intrusive thoughts and depression since i am like 13, i discovered too at 13 that i had a foot fetish and i was made fun of it by two female classmates and they told all the other girl, plus in an academy was one girl from my grade who told in front of all the class that i had a foot fetish and i was so pathetic that i hired a dominatrix without sering a face pic and i really didnt want to do anything with her but since i didnt want to sound gross and tried to get back my money i tried to say it slowly (also i was like i couldnt say no) but when i got courage to say something that i was dizzy) she didnt care and fucked my ass and i ended crying because i thought that i betrayed my possible future gf for doing that, and i was always ignored by my female classmates for being too shy and they even complained about me doing nothing when they didnt even let me lol i am tired of all this i live and empty life i needed to vent