So when I am out and about, I noticed every so often women will try to come up to me or more lately it seems like I get stares or comments (some girls were saying what a fat ass that is, but I looked around and I did not see anything obvious and I was also at work, so even if that was the case I did not think that would be proper. I think they also said something to the effect of oh he is ignoring us lol).

However, when I approach I can get numbers, but it usually goes nowhere. This kind of puzzles me. I kinda chuckle, because when I am stuck in autistic mode (obsessing about X or Y), people tend to come up to me, but then here I am thinking about an options trade or whatever. But I don't know how to react when they do come up to me. One time I was standing there and some girl asked me to watch her phone, and she gave me 5 bucks. OK whatever. We started chatting (well she did) and then her sister came up and said something like you better be helping her. Shit lady, I was just talking lol. There were also some times when I shit myself due to Metformin (long story) and went to get some tax paperwork and had a decent conversation with a woman in the HR for my job (staffing agency). I also had something similar (sweating profusely and not at the HR place). All this to say it seems like there is always something getting in my way. There have also been a few other things that can go either way.

So I guess with getting turned down, IDK if I am being delusional based off my interactions or not. I am down to 204 , 5'11 (from 280), but I am hoping to make it to 180. I also want to focus on making more money trading and with a few other things, but I will be honest dopamine chasing kinda gets to me. I also have my own place and a decent job. I am just not sure if I am being delusional or not.