I’m M(29) been thinking about doing this post for quite a while now, I’m honestly not expecting anything to come from it but I’m here now. I mostly come to Reddit for the memes and trolls cause the comments sections are hilarious sometimes but I’ve been finding myself more and more lurking in these subs so this is my first post. It’s tough, we all struggle in our own ways, being sad and lonely, you’ll find yourself in… interesting situations so excuse me if this post becomes lengthy.

I want to preface this by saying, I have friends, they mean the word to me, day one’s and some online friends too but damn loneliness is a mf. I’ve always just felt to myself? Around friends spending good times together, I’ll have a deep sense of being alone. It sucks, I feel so bad sometimes like I’m an imposter when I’m out, sometimes I’ll just dodge plans to be home so I can chill by myself. I do enjoy my solitude though and this gives me a lot of time for introspection but sometimes a bit too much like slipping into bad habits of just completely ghosting my friends like no replies to messages or calls or switching my phone off for days/weeks and it’s shitty on them, cause that’s me being a bad friend but I just need time alone, idk but that’s not the point of this post.

I’m looking to make a friend, a female companion, someone I can share and create a deep connection with. I don’t have any expectations but just someone I can share a genuine connection with. I want to discover you, your highs and your lows and see where things go. Sharing an intimate connection with a significant other. I don’t usually put myself out there and I’m not like actively seeking this out, I don’t think it’s healthy for someone just to latch onto the first person that gives them attention because like I said loneliness is a mf. But things won’t just fall on your lap so, we have to make an effort you know and I’ve been trying to do so, really trying to keep in good spirits because I believe this world can be beautiful so this is my heart on a sleeve.

I’ve been in relationships before and would like to consider myself a fairly emotionally mature guy but during those.. it just never felt right, like what is love? It’s so subjective, Interstellar (the film) has a beautiful perspective on this. I have to mention like these feelings that makes us feel down, doesn’t define us but it’s a part of us, I love randomly just taking a joke at anything, like have a sense of humor for things, my friends and I just take a stab at anything for the lols, it’s fun, so here are some things about myself:

Music is life. It keeps me going, as a gift my friend would share a song with me and I LOVE it, it might seem simple but there’s a deeper meaning to it. I studied Architecture at uni and currently free lancing from home, this really makes my sleeping pattern all back to front lmao. I love animation and film especially, from story to cinematography, I’m trying to write my own story on the side as a self-induced project, which makes me want to get more into reading, I should do that more. Some media I enjoy- Interstellar (ofcs), Everything Everywhere All at Once, DEVS, Love Death Robots, Arcane, Castlevania, Fullmetal Alchemist. I try to keep active, when I have the energy, we can share pics if that’s what you’d like (I know people like to have an idea of whom they speaking too). I enjoy gaming, especially a good story, Last of Us, GOW, Red Dead Redemption and souls like, recently more fps like Valorant. Appreciate any time I can get out in nature, haven’t been to the beach in a while, which is sad cause I consider it a happy place. Big on martial arts and need to practice more plus have two adorable cats which honestly can’t live without haha. Have an inkling for science like how tf does quantum mechanics work, I just like to entertain myself and lean more about things like that, the universe is interesting, which goes hand in hand with philosophy, favorite philosopher is René Descartes. Some of these thought experiments can really be a mind fk.

If you reading this and would like to connect, see where it goes, feel free to drop me a dm and anything about yourself, age specifically.  I guess in a way this is me shooting my shot so why not do the same, you never know. I guess I’m finding myself at a point where all my friends have a significant other and I’m so happy for them but when I’m by myself it hits. I spend a lot of hours awake and would be nice to spend it with someone, learning about everything that makes you who you are. I’m down just for the banter too, Going to leave this post across a few subs of similar interest so you might see some overlap.

And if there’s anything you can take away from this post is that, it’s okay to feel like you drowning but you’re not alone. The world isn’t all that bad, find your joy<3