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Hello all. Iā€™m trying to understand how to feel ā€œbetterā€ about lupus.

Not only has my body deteriorated before my eyes I also have been struggling with a sense of grief that plagues me.

Itā€™s been so so scary, it happened slowly then all at once. I went from being a social butterfly, always out and about, always making connections, to being stuck at home all the time and isolated. I have l good support from my found family but I donā€™t know how to not be around others all the time. I had to quit my job, and I loved my job.

I think the worst part of this is how out of touch I am with myself. The brain issues that come with this are so harsh for me, Iā€™m forgetting so many of the important moments in my life, the daily pain has warped me and I feel like less of a good person than I was before it. I wish it didnā€™t touch my brain. It scares me.

Overall I just want to learnā€¦acceptance at least. Iā€™m so angry at how it stole the life I had. Iā€™m so angry at how it scares my loved ones. Iā€™m so angry that it makes me angry.

Thank you for your time

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