So I've been having 9 days straight of burning hives, I went to urgent care last week, got an Rx antihistamine and it didn't go away or really help. went again today got a burst of 60 mg of prednisone for the next 5 days. got an emergency appointment with my rheumatologist, and she said, yep stop the benlysta (ive been on it for a year got into remission. but the reaction started an hour after injecting, the body can suck)

so I called my grandma JJ to give her a quick run down and my weekly update on life. Ive been on the fence about going to Texas next week for my best friends wedding (I was going to be the maid of honor)but even my friend is saying I should absolutely not go now (we made arrangements for everyone's safety at her family's house which the wedding would be held, and it was going to be like 10 people the whole time, reception to be held at a later date when there isnt a plague). My grandmother is sad for me, she loves when any of her grandkids get to travel and see the world. so i told her that is sad I can't go see my friend, but at least I just bought a nice memory foam, temperature controlling adjustable mattress i can just lay in while im not feeling good and maybe zoom in on the wedding.

and then she told me "yeah. and this is a good time, because its abiut to be cold and icy and terrible outside. and we spent a solid 30 mins on the phone just talking about all the things I can do if this allergic reaction triggers a full blown flare (my labs are all over the place right now) and all the things I wont miss having a flare in a MN winter (falling on ice. bad driving, when the snow gets in your boot because you stepped right next to a snowbank that was just a little too deep) and what I do get to experience (birds chirping in the morning, snowy sunrises sipping teas and cuddling my dogs) it was a good conversation I didn't know I needed.

I went into that phone call thinking I might cry a little in the shower, and having that conversation just made me smile.

Do you have any grandma JJ silver linings and generally uplifting things you think about on the bad days?

Just wanted to share a little wholesome grandma chat with you guys that made a terrible day melt into an achievable day <3