I am going to have this weekend to myself, no one in the house, no obligations. That's gonna be a lot of edges, a lot of toys. My wife is going on a trip, leaving mid day Friday, not getting home until Monday night. If you look at which subreddit we are in here I think you know what that means. I can edge anytime, let someone control my toys on the internet, tell me what to do, but I feel like I can do more, go longer, when no one is home. So many toys, and plenty of time to play with as many of them as I feel like. I can stroke, and vibrate until I can't think clearly. I can ride a plug, walk around wearing cock rings, whatever. I have so many fantasies to play with.

My favorite edging, and denial, happens when I get all worked up and let someone take advantage of me. There are so many fun things that I don't do when it's just me, and I haven't been on edge for very long. It doesn't matter if it's embarrassing, or messy, or whatever, once I get excited enough. If a woman tells me she wants me to do it, and my hard needy cock wants to make her happy, I'm doing it. Once I get there, the more humiliating it is the better. Not a cruel contemptuous sort of humiliation, the tone is more affectionate and amused. Cute. Easy to control. Eager. Helpless. Too excited to say no. I really want to beg and plead, and have my partner laugh at how easy it is to fuck with my head. It is so fuckin hot being told to beg for an orgasm, and then be denied.

I said I have fantasies. One revolves around a certain friend, we sometimes make out, cuddle, and fool around a bit, but the furthest it has gone was some shirtless groping. I keep thinking about having on a cock ring or two and a plug in my ass, under my clothes, while we cuddle and make out. No rush for more, fully expecting it just be a tease. As much as my cock would want attention, we would go slow, so slow. It would be obvious how excited I would be, but she would be in no rush. As I get breathless and needy, she might tell me she wants a back rub, "innocently" taking advantage of me wanting to please. Cooling me off with something less exciting, then winding me up again. Laughing at my reactions, and having fun together. I don't even know how I want that fantasy to end.

That's (probably) not for this weekend though. I'm thinking about ordering a lovense prostate toy. That would be fun to let the internet take control of. I know where that would go though. I can have orgasms from prostate stimulation that are just my prostate, no ejaculation. It feels good, and it's exciting, but it's not like a cock orgasm, it's not satisfying. My cock can be on the edge even while I am having that sort of orgasm and I will beg to stroke my cock, even though deep down I want to be told no. Not yet. That's the thing of it, on the surface, wanting to cum. My body so eager for it, but if I do, it's over. So please, keep saying no, not yet, keep going until well past when it gets difficult. But that's not what I meant when I said I know where it will go. One big fantasy for the weekend is being told, once I get needy and eager, to put on some combination of toys, cock rings, butt plug, lovense vibrator, under my clothes, put on my headset, give up control of the toys and go outside for a walk in my quiet suburban neighborhood. That much more excitement, embarrassment, and control. That will remind me to ask not to cum. Not now, not like this, but then, excitement overwhelms shame and yes please, no one is looking. And being told no is still so fucking exciting.

I will want to cum eventually. I don't want to know when, or how. I want it to be a struggle and a mess and most of all I want it to be hilarious for the woman in control. I expect it will end up in my mouth, or on my face. One woman used to threaten to make me post a request for a man to control my toy, and have me cum that way, while she listened and teased me about it.

Ok, I have rambled enough now. A little play before bedtime, hopefully. My DMs are open....