Our D day was about 8 months ago. I'm sure I haven't handled it well but I think I'm coping by just focusing on myself. I refuse to be a "porn police" or go thru his phone anymore because of how much it tore me apart last time. Recently, there has been almost ZERO physical contact between us. I'm as flirty as I can be but I'll only do so much(unreciprocated). It's not just the physical things. He doesn't initiate conversations or seem interested in ANYTHING to do with me. I'm a SAHM and he works pretty often but he had two off days in a row last week. We hardly talked. I feel like I'm going crazy. I mentioned it to him and asked if he's feeling okay and what I can do to help if something is wrong but he insists that there's nothing wrong. "I'm just enjoying my day." "I was trying to think of something to say/do." That's all I ever hear. I'm trying to be patient and kind about it. I try to communicate and tell him how I feel without being aggressive or "naggy" but I genuinely feel like I've hit a wall. We have a child together so just leaving isn't exactly an option. I want to fix our relationship but not if I have to ignore my own needs. I go all day/everyday without adult communication. When he's home, it's no different. He's addicted to his phone (not just in a porn way). He plays video games and has to have a screen in front of him at all times. I feel like I'm always in last place no matter what I do. I'm just so lonely and so tired and SO touch deprived but when he touches me, I can't be in the moment because of the past. What can I do? Is this doomed entirely? How can I stop feeling like a doormat?