I never plan to fall in love with you but I did. Maybe you're just a fantasy as I never got to know you as a lover. I never got the courage to tell you the depth of my feelings. I knew you were not interested. I didn't try to push it. I did try to convince you to at least explore the option, but you rejected me. You just told me you just a normal guy without any other reasons.

We were very good friends for 2 years but I had wanted more than that. I tried to distance myself from you after the first rejection. You didn't let me go until I told you directly. You will respect my decision even if you begged me to reconsider my decision and not block you. You had wanted us to stay friends. But I know you won't contact me again.

You got interest in me for who I am, not for my job, not for my apparence. We were friends for months before there was anything else. I wanted so much to take care of you, to cook you warm meal after a long day of work, to give you a massage, to cuddle you. We had fun talking together, we laughed a lot. You were just a normal guy but I've never care about the rest. I was just hoping you would cherish me. I knew what you wanted in a relationship and I wanted to give it to you. I wanted to see you smile. I wanted to make your life better.

I knew you were attracted me. We had flirted. We were sexually compatible. But, you've never wanted to give it a serious try. I knew it would be complicated, it would take years before it gets simpler but you still didn't want to give it a try. I was ready to try. I was ready to wait a few years before we could be together for good. I would have been happy to.just be with you one weekend per month.

You wanted me. I wanted you. We had so much fun together. But I knew it was time for me to tell you goodbye. I had to protect my heart. I will miss you. I hope you will find love one day.