There's a saying "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder", I believe that to be true, then again I also believe in the concept of soulmates, while to some it may be a non-existent concept based of romantic movies and wants and dreams, to me I'm a firm believer, I believe there is someone out there for me.

When you bring up statistics and combine that with attraction you get what, 1% of the population that could be your type, some say millions of people, that's cool and everything, but I only want one, my one, my perfect match, the one who gets me the most.

It may be an impossible dream but what is it that you tell kids "dream big", I've been dreaming ever since I was a kid. For years I dreamt of so many different things it's hard to keep track, but, and a very big but, there was always one constant at the back of my mind, a partner, not just any partner, my perfect partner.

I've always had a good idea of what kind of person my perfect partner is and for years I tried to find a version a that but couldn't, mainly because the version I was looking for lacked one important detail, for a long time I tried to deny I wanted a promiscuous partner but I came to realize, that is exactly what I wanted.

I tried to fit into the bracket of wanting an "unclaimed, untouched" woman, but that wasn't me, I was lying to myself, that's exactly what I wanted, I wanted someone who was out there and was proud to be there.

The more I thought about this partner, the more I thought about the type of relationship we would have, I have written posts about this and commented in various places but I think here is a great place to go into more detail and I'll do so in the form of a letter, a letter to her, to you, my perfect partner, wherever you may be.

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Dear my darling soulmate,

It's great to finally meet you, for you to read my words and know I'm thinking of you always.

I'm looking forward to building a trusting, honest, open and caring relationship with you. A relationship where we can share our secrets, gossip, feelings, dreams, desires, hopes and fears in a safe environment without fear of judgement. This kind of relationship would be special to us as we would build each other up constantly and be each others rocks, shoulders to cry on and safe spaces. We would be that in tune with each other that no one would be able to come between us and we would always have each others backs (and front's but that's a different point), any issues we had we could discuss and work on together to make a working relationship and face everything head on, side by side.

I'm looking forward to us loving each other deeply, being silly together and being the crazy couple everyone looks at weirdly because we just get each other and are not afraid to show the world our unique way of loving each other. Let's send funny texts to each other throughout the day, how about some memes and silly videos and selfies. Let's be ourselves and tell each other random stories and jokes and just be us, let's be immature together and tell dirty jokes that make us laugh on the floor, most importantly here, I'm looking forward to seeing and making you smile every single day.

I'm looking forward to tasting your cooking and you tasting mine, if you've seen the pictures then you know I'm fairly decent, maybe you're better and can teach me? Maybe we can share recipes. If we don't want to cook though let's be lazy and have a takeaway. I would love to bake with you though, us both in the kitchen making a cake and I slap your ass with flour and leave a print, maybe you catch on and kiss me and put flour on my face in return, I look forward to messing around and having fun with you in whatever form that is.

I'm looking forward to exploring the world with you, let's go on random adventures, visit different countries and create a photo book for the future to look back on, let's create the best memories by jumping into lakes and pools, climbing mountains and taking road trips to random places. I look forward to just sitting in a café in a random city with you, how about I take a picture of the local beauty which turns out to be a picture of you?

I'm looking forward to creating a family with you, me and you, husband and wife, a kid or two, or three. Some pets, a dog? a cat? something else? Let's build a future to look back on and smile, let's tell the kids and grandkids our stories, let's challenge ourselves to make them go "eww!", best one gets a kiss. I look forward to growing old and grey by your side and never letting go until it's time to reunite in a another plane of existence so we can do it all over again.

Back to earth and the present though, I'm looking forward to exploring our kinks and sexualities, let's experiment with anything and everything we can think of, life is short and I wanna do it all with you. Let's be totally committed to each other but know we are strong enough to play with others and have even more fun together. Though let's be extra courageous and take pictures or videos of our exploits and share them with the internet, shall we see if we can break it?

I'm looking forward to doing everything with you, let's play with toys discreetly in public, would we succeed? How about we go to the movies and have fun in the back row, do you think people would notice or join us? Let's do everything we can while we have the time to do it. Let's love each other, get each other and have all the fun we can.

I know we both have our flaws, imperfections, issues and problems but that doesn't matter, let's work on them together, let's make each other stronger and become unstoppable, unbreakable, inseparable.

I choose to believe there is someone out there that will go "Yes, he's my man, I found him". These thoughts were my dreams, my hopes for the future.

If you're out there reading this my love, know this, I'm looking forward to meeting you.

Yours

Your Informal Cucumber x