In 2021 she was talking to me about a medical procedure that she was getting done and I was struggling with my FWB due to him, not being honest with me. I I got caught up in the latter situation so much that she rightfully called me out for not bothering to check up on her and told me that our friendship was over, and rightfully so. I sent her and sincere apology the next day, yet I got radio silence.

Unfortunately I’ve had a history of lashing out at her sometimes whenever I’m given constructive criticism & also trauma dumping on her too much

It has been three years and although I have been getting therapy meds and using great coping skills, such as working out hanging out with my other friends doing something that I enjoy, listening to my music and of course, spending time with my cat, things have not been the same since she cut me off from her life.

Although I am holding onto hope that one day we can be friends again despite the fact that I will probably not be the same, I’m having a hard time swallowing this bitter pill that she may never grant me access to her life again. We’re still friends on Facebook but unfortunately I see her enjoying her other friends, knowing that I’m not allowed to speak to her ever again.

Where do I go from here? I’ve made newer friends since our falling out, but it will never be on the same level of me & my lost friend.