I am going through a fresh best friend break up. I technically talked to them a few days ago but it wasnt a full conversation. They want nothing to do with me but they havent blocked me. They no longer want to put time and energy into our friendship and truthfully, I dont know how to deal with it. They were my best friend for almost 7 years and we talked literally every day. It hurts like hell to have the person closest to you suddenly want nothing to do with you. And there was no fight. No messy love triangle. Nothing that would seemingly make this easier than they just said they cant do us anymore.

Anywho, I feel alone. Not that I dont have friends but for some reason I dont feel close to them. Things I wouldve shared with him, it feels like no one else would care. Most notably, Im at the beginning of a weight loss journey. Im terrified of starting and failing and I have no one to tell about it. Im supposed to be putting together a 12 week program today and Ive put it off all day. Ive done everything else I need to do so there's nothing else to keep me from doing it

I feel pathetic feeling like I need him. I cant help but assume that he isnt thinking about me at all. I have days of normalcy sure but then I have days and moments like this where I need a best friend and I dont have one. He told me we were forever. He told me we were gonna do this together.....

Maybe this is the start of me learning to do life on my own. At least for now. If I can lose this weight by myself, with little to no support, then I can do anything. At least that's what I tell myself