If you are here its probably because you have a problem with eating to much good food. At least that's my problem and when I say this I don't mean fancy good food like caviar and capers with some type of confusing bread name. I mean just junk--bad junk food. I have always related closely with comical characters who were food oriented (like Jughead) but they still remained slim. Unlike me. Obviously of these characters are fictional and it is unbelievable to be able to eat a ton of food and still be at a normal weight but in my little brain I like to assume that these characters love their time with junk food but they still eat in moderation.

Even if they don't hell I'd still want to be them because when people (like me) see someone skinny who love food we think its endearing and silly. When it's someone fat who loves food (also like me) its seen as sad and it's not hard to tell.

But they are right it is sad! I love food too much and I have overeatan food to the point that any amount of joy I had while eating the food isn't worth what I'm going through in my mind most of the day. I toil with self-esteem and feeling like I'm enough and maybe its society's fault maybe it's my fault but I don't want to live like this anymore.

So yeah when I say foodie I mean I dream of being slim and telling people that I love food and then people instead of giving me a forlorn face will look at my body say, "Good for you!"