So I yo yo on my weight but recently I have not been terribly worried about it so my weight is nearly at the highest that it has ever been. I want to lose weight, but it just seems like so much work and I am always exhausted from taking care of 2 babies. Always making excuses.

This morning my best friend called to tell me that her sister is dying from organ failure. She pretty much ate herself to death and was nearly 600 pounds. The hospital was unable to treat her to the fullest extent because they just didn’t have equipment that could handle a person of her weight. I am nowhere near her weight, but I know that she was my current size when I met her 15 years ago. She is so large that her family will not be able to bury her because they can’t afford the specialty coffin that is needed, so they will have to cremate.

This is so scary to me. I hope I can take this and get myself on the right path because I do not want to follow hers.