Hey guys!

So I can't tell you how many times I've started and stopped dieting. Often after losing a significant amount of weight (usually around 15 pounds or so). I don't know why it keeps happening. I hit a milestone and think, "I can chill for a while now," maybe.

But it's happened again. Back in early August I started Couch to 5k and finished it sometime in October. During that time period I restricted my caloric intake and got down from 173 pounds to 158. Woo!

But then the progress stopped. I stopped running when I finished my routine and then started eating however I liked. And this happens again and again and again.

The hardest part is starting or re-starting and getting back into a diet. I just can't do it. I started the 5k to 10k to keep myself running, but the holidays are coming up and I'm more worried than ever about food and eating too much. I'll be home in America for Christmas and I'll wanna eat all my favorite foods. How can I resist pigging out when I'm only home for a limited time??

But most importantly, how can I avoid getting in these ruts where I have to start over again? I want to lose weight SO BAD but something in me keeps trying to stop my progress. I binge-ate a pizza last night because I had intense period cramps and the uterus craved what it craved. The call of the pizza. Oh, I'm a mess. Please send help. And more pizza.