32F, SW: 229, CW:210, GW: 130

Hi, I just need somewhere to vent for a minute. I started my weight loss journey at the beginning of Sept. For the past 2.5 years I've been going to school full-time, working from home full-time, homeschooling my 8M son, and caring for my 4F daughter. I knew I had gained weight but I didn't know how bad it was until me and my daughter got sick. When we went to the doctor and I stepped on the scale, I closed my eyes and told the nurse I didn't want to know but she read it out loud while writing it down anyways. I was crushed. I had never been over 200lbs in my life. I cut out sodas and other sweet drinks years ago but I knew that my late night snacks during and after studying along with have my husband just pick something up on the nights I had to work late or was too tired to cook was my main problem. I can't eat like most people do on a diet because I'm allergic to chlorophyll so all this healthy greens are out the window. So right now I'm doing IF 18:6 and have eliminated sugar from my diet and eat overnight oats most of the week. If I'm not in the mood for the oats, I'll make some scrambled eggs with just a little salt, pepper, and cheese with a slice of 45 calorie toast and sugar free strawberry preserves. I'm usually ok through the day. I keep most of the cravings at bay by allowing myself to taste test the meals I cook for my family and I have a cheat meal once a week. What is really getting me though is the late nights when the hunger sets in and I don't have time at all to exercise. I'm also on an anxiety med that is also used to increase appetite so I'm battling that too. Why is this so hard. 😭😭😭

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