What can I do to ease into this? I want to change, I really really want to change. I am tired of feeling ugly and gross, I need to change myself but I have no tolerance for pain. How do I fight past it or alleviate it? How can I stop cramping so I can actually do sit-ups without fear?walk my lower back, especially the sides of my lower back, kill me. I can't manage to do crunches without getting terrible stomach cramps (it's kinda scary to watch too, like half (right or left, usually right) my stomach sucks in and the other half doesn't, like my belly is split in half), and on top of all that I had a terrible gym experience (terrible advice from the local gym's personal trainer) that ended with me going to the hospital in my mid 20's and having roughly a year of panic attacks afterwards.

What can I do to ease into this? I want to change, I really really want to change. I am tired of feeling ugly and gross, I need to change myself but I have no tolerance for pain. How do I fight past it or alleviate it? How can I stop cramping so I can actually do situps without fear?

How do I deal with always feeling hungry? I lost weight when I use to be on Jenny Craig and realize my portion control is certainly a problem but how do I suppress my hunger with healthier food portions?

I am lost and need help. Please help me. I want to do this, I don't want to die in my 40's.

EDIT: Thank you all for your responses and feedback, I appreciate the tips and advice. I replied to a few posts but I don't want to just spam posts with "Thanks for the advice, I appreciate it!" Thank you all.