NSV- I had ALL the confidence

So last month a couple that my husband and I are friends with convinced us to go to a swingers club for a glow foam party. (Think massive amounts of bubbles in a giant blow up pool) Now before losing nearly 95 pounds I would have NEVER gone to a party with just swim suits much less potential nudity, but we have both been trying to get out of our comfort zone so we said yes.

At first I was nervous, but as the night went on I lost more and more clothes and at one point I walked across the dance floor/ bubble pit stark naked and I felt AMAZING. I don’t know if anyone was even looking because I walked with the confidence of a mediocre white man, head up and shoulders back. No hunching, huddling, or hiding behind my hair.

We danced for hours together, and had a life experience that I never imagined I could have. I still have insecurities about my body, especially with the loose skin, but I spent so much of my life waiting to do things until I was perfect that life just passed me by. I have an appointment for my skin removal consult coming up, but I refused to miss out on this party because I wasn’t perfect. And honestly, it was a little life changing for me. I FINALLY accepted that I had lost the weight and that my existence is not an inconvenience to anyone.

I know that a swingers club is a little unorthodox, but I have never felt so attractive and powerful in my own body and honestly the people were way more respectful of boundaries than the traditional clubs I went to when I was 18. The club has another foam party scheduled in June and we are definitely going!