Preface this with that I am ftm. We're not allowed to post in loosepussyland so I hope this is okay - will delete if not. I don't care about being referred to by female terminology for sexual purposes, I just go by male pronouns.

A ramble about how I got into this, my thoughts, what I want to do to myself.

I came across this kink as a byproduct of getting into fantasy toys. It's hard to avoid a size fetish when those toys go up to such crazy sizes, and it'd be impossible to not come across incredible stretchers if you enjoy that content.

When I first saw it, I never thought of it in the context of myself. I just found it extremely hot to think of pussies crossing that point of no return; getting fucked so much and so big that they stay open. A permanent consequence of your actions, a constant reminder of your sex life. It started out with a tone of degradation - wrecked, ruined, useless for cock - and while that's still there, now that I know what it's like to stretch I have an entire new view about it.

When I first started using big toys myself, and still a little bit now, I was pretty worried about stretching myself out and becoming permanently loose. I used big toys sparingly and never pushed out. I would get off to loose pussies all the time but definitely didn't want that to happen to me. I had this notion that I didn't want to ruin myself for a potential future partner, despite not actually wanting a partner. Too worried about what is standard. The thing about stretching, though, is that once you start to enjoy it you really miss when it isn't there.

I like taking toys so big I have to warm up for them extensively first. I like when those toys then become my starter toys. I go crazy when my new huge toys don't take long to size up to because my pussy is finally giving in and loosens up the moment anything sexual starts to happen, expecting something huge coming.

I think about going hard on myself all the time. I'm still held back by that fear of consequence, but that threat of permanency also turns me on so much. I want to get into stretching HARD, spend a month fucking big toys in the day and plugging all night. I want to end the month with a gape that never closes and a pussy that will always be able to take a fist with no warmup. I really wish I had encouragement throughout that month to do that to myself, but it's hard to find that sort of thing. My body seems resilient and bounces back even though I stretch a lot more these days, and my pesky little doubts are still there. I scroll through comments and posts in loosepussyland to encourage myself, but it's always better when the comments are personal.

Thanks for reading if you did :) Love talking to others who are into real stretching, not just "my cock is 9 inches I could TOTALLY wreck you".