Context, i met my now partner (m) after years of being a single mom. I had played with the normal sized dildos, but on occassion the desire to be stretched and filled would overpower me and i would fit whatever objects i could inside my mommy cunt. I would cum to porn of woman being fisted. I wanted it so badly, but i was under the impression that stretching my cunt out further would make it harder for me to find a partner, i allready had limitations, being a solo mom, the dating scene in newzealand being small, i couldnt be out there with a big sloppy pussy too. When i met my partner those worries were washed away.this man loved me, and fully supported my loose pussy goals. He had his fist in me (first time i was ever fisted) on our second date. And there was no going back. I fell quite deeply for him then, he fell for me on the third date when i pegged him. Since then we have grown and our relationship has blossomed. He fits two fists inside me now. I use huge dildos. Dildos too big and heavy for a strap on harness. But when i do crave actual cock, and allow him inside of me, i truely dont feel it. Just his balls slapping me and his body desperately trying to wiggle and squeeze into me more. I suppose it doesnt help that we are both fat. We made the decision (i did) to be pussy free now. Whats the point, i dont get off on his tiny cock. So now our casual, weekly sex life looks like this ; laying top to toe, my hand wanking his cock and him elbow deep in my mommy cunt. And i love it. He loves it. The only time he is allowed inside of me is when i want to remind him how loose i am. When ive sized up on a new huge dildo. Or when ive been with a man with a huge cock. He cums so fast its barely sex.