I'm a geek. A nerd. And I live in the yeehaw state. Girls out here like country guys, manly guys, and it sucks. I can't find anyone I connect with. It's lonely. I go on tinder and get ignored and ghosted for months, it's the same with other dating apps. It so discouraging. I feel like giving up. Everybody says "you're young", "the right person will come along", "oh just get out more" . I am So sick of hearing that. It's not true and it doesn't help me feel better at all. In fact it makes me feel worse. It cements that it's my fault. My fault nobody wants me. I'm not good enough for those around me. I'm too nerdy, to weird and too awkward

I just want to find a girl who likes me for me. Who enjoys my same interests. Who will tell me all about her day and not play games with my mind and emotions. Someone who will cuddle but also lightsaber fight with me.

My trauma tends to make me hyper sexual. I enjoy sexual stuff but then I feel empty and alone because I have nobody to talk to, and if I'm sexting, they disappear after they see me, or the moment that I'm not feeling sexual they leave.

I'm just so sick of feeling alone and like a broken failure. This rant probably doesn't make any sense. I'm sorry for wasting your time