I wish I had someone to spend the holidays and the rest of my life with. I'm a 25year old male and I hate dating apps, it feels so shallow and the people just don't seen interested in relationships. No one seems to genuinely want or is ready for a relationship. Everyone I've met this year, every single one.. has asked to be fwb. Is monogamy dead? I'm just getting depressed and jaded. Is it like this everywhere? Is it just the bay area? I feel like im getting old alone, when I want to be growing old with my partner.

I want nothing more than to just find my forever person. They have to be out there somewhere. Wherever they are, I know we haven't met. But I miss them terribly. I feel like im going through life missing a part of myself. No one to cuddle for the holidays, no one to celebrate life with or just spend quality time with.

I dont know where else to look. Someone tell me what I'm doing wrong. Thanks for comming to my Ted talk, I mean rant.

EDIT: Thank you everyone for your kind words and support. This post seems to have been relatable for a lot of people sadly. I hope everyone finds the love and happiness they deserve ❤️