Well, this is something that I really want to get off my chest, I think, to have a boyfriend, girlfriend, partner, a person by your side lol .I think you should at least have some stability in your life, I'm not going to deny it, I liked the fairy tale story of a couple who would come to save you and help you, but to be honest. Living that "Fairy Tale" is something very unrealistic

I've never had any stability in my life, and I don't understand what I want, or where I'm going, in any sense I understand what I want and I think having a partner would just drag him into a hole with me.And I really don't want to do that, I mean, I don't see the point of dragging someone into a hole of "I don't know what I want," and having that person in a limbo of instability in every way.

It hurts, because if there have been people that I have liked, and I may have tried it with someone but, it would only have gone wrong, as much as I wanted that relationship

Even for the few people who, for some reason, have a liking in me, I simply said no flatly, I want to stop feeling like this I want to stop feeling like a black hole of not knowing.What I want and to be able to have a stable relationship... Imagine