Recently i moved to a new country in Europe (I’m 22 M from asia). I have been having a hard time making friends (thanks to my extreme social anxiety and hairloss). Its been 2 months now and even tho I know a few people, i feel lonelier than ever. Sometimes I just feel like crying randomly idk why. But I can’t even let it out. My eyes tear up and i feel so emotional and its so random but all i feel is sadness and pain at that time. I have been trying dating apps as well but everytime they see my face on snap people just unmatch me. I feel like I made such a huge mistake moving abroad for my studies. I can’t complain to anyone because people would just laugh at me. I don’t what would ever fix me in general but all i want to do is cry and even so I know things wont get better. I have failed at love and i feel like i have failed at life as well. I feel so worthless and feel like it wouldn’t make any difference to anyone if I disappeared. Sure my parents would miss me but for how long. They’re probably the only ones that care. Other than that I am all alone and I dont want to face that anymore.

I am so sorry for this bs rant.