My (now) ex and I broke up recently, and shortly after I was unable to use my phone for around 2 weeks (for reasons I wont share). When I got my phone back I saw that my ex cut contact everywhere without a word. So yeah, I guess I got f-cked over again. I feel embarassed and ashamed for thinking that a long-distance relationship would work.

What's worse is I have 2, maybe 4 people I talk to alltogether - but we barely talk.

Now that I'm single I have nobody to talk to. It makes me feel lonely, but also numb? I'm not sure how to describe it.

I just wish I had a friend group and someone I can give all my love to for the rest of our life. Someone that I can trust and share happy moments with. And especially someone I can be phisically affectionate with.

Seeing so many couples my age being all cute and happy, or seeing friends laughing together makes me feel hearbroken. Heck, even when I'm with family members I feel lonely.

I feel like there is a part of me / my life that's missing. Honestly, I just want to stop feeling this way.