I’ve suffered my entire life from depression of varying degrees. I’ve never had a relationship, well at least not a healthy one. Always one based on the other person wanting me to do something for them or for me to give them something. So I am bi and about 6 months ago I reconnected with a guy I had first met several years back but we ended up drifting separate ways but not from some falling out. But for the last six months he and I have been spending a lot of time together about a third of the week time wise. I didn’t reconnect with him in pursuit of any relationship other than buddies BUT it gravitated into being a FWB arrangement and then got even deeper by both of us doing overnighters. And slowly but surely after months of him calling me sexy, handsome, honey etc plus us smoking weed and him giving me shotguns I allowed the walls to come down and began reciprocating that affection. Well a week ago he got really sick that required an ER visit. The night before however he had come over to my house and that night he developed a fever and chills. I gave him some Tylenol and wrapped him up tight with blankets AND ME. And while he was laying there shivering I hugged him tight and told him I hate to see you like this. I care about you. I love you. Neither one of us had ever said those three words before. We woke up the next morning. He went home and then he took himself to the ER. I told him to please let me care for you and told him it’s important to me. Don’t leave me out because you’ll hurt me. So then after he got home I asked him what he needed first and he said that a buddy of his was bringing him his dinner and was going to pick up his prescriptions and wanted me to then come over after his friend left As I had expected that did a number on me and as I often do to deal with sadness and depression I fell asleep. When I woke up at 8:30 I saw he had texted me saying his buddy got tied up and was a no show and asked me if I was coming over to stay with him. I told him now I’m hurt AND mad because he hadn’t eaten or gotten any meds. I drove over to his place with food but told him I am not staying the night. He apologized the next day. To wind this story up I asked him “how exactly would you describe our current relationship?” He said “I wouldn’t, I don’t like labels. I’m fine with it as is without labeling us. Now come over here and hug on me”. I told him I think I better back up now. I think I put a scare on you saying I love you and so you asked your friend to care for you instead of me. I think the wise thing for me to do to protect myself from getting hurt is label us as friend status. No more overnighters, no sexual anything because to me I can’t just sport f*ck with you without getting damaged because my heart has gotten involved. Long story short he went from initially apologizing to now calling me an asshole and has cut off all contact not even wanting to be friends. Sorry this was so long but I needed to get it out and get some feedback PLEASE?