If I told my parents about the things I’ve been mentally going through, would honestly just worry the fuck out of them and I’d just end up feeling so much worse. If I told a friend they’d say what they always do that you need to move on and time will make it better like boy have I not been trying it’s not like I just sit on my ass all day trying to fuck my mind up. Anyway, been feeling more and more off lately. It’s like I’m a spectator of my own feelings with no power to change how it is, even though I know I do have the power, it still feels like an endless cycle of these range of emotions all pertaining to ending it all. It’s Iike I’ll know if I start doing a certain thing, things might change yet I feel the complete opposite, everything just seems so, pointless.