31 male

Does anyone else feel pulled in 2 different directions?

On one hand I feel like shutting everyone out, going on my way as a lone wolf, blocking everyone that hurts me from social media, and just do my own thing. I'm afraid if I go this route I'm going to find myself in 30 years being a bitter old man and looking back on my life with regret.

On the other hand I know what being alone feels like and I don't want to feel that way ever again. But I also know how difficult it is to go out and be social, to find anyone who will accept me into their lives, so this route is filled with the uncertainty of trying to find my people and maybe being successful or maybe finding myself hurt and alone again.

I truly feel like I'm entering a 1/3 life crisis and I don't know what to do.