I really dont know how to get over the dissonance I feel in the midst of other people, it seems so paradoxical that those around me can me me feel lonely and misunderstood. Sometimes I can enjoy myself around others but most times, they just have a different temperment and persepctives on how they tackle reality? The only way I relate to people are through jokes and small talk most times, otherwise, there's not really much there. I've tried making likeminded company, but continuosly scowering redditand the internet in general gets exhausting. It's hard for me to sustain that sort of effort especially when I have other things to do or think about in life. I feel like I'm sorta destined to be alone atp, idk.