For years I've felt like I've never had any solid connection with anyone. I've never had the typical little "best friend" post made about me. Or been someone's first choice in anything. (Sports, outings, hell even family dinners)

I can send a message to someone, just asking how's it goin or even hi, and never get a response back. If I run into anyone while I'm out they're in a hurry to go on with their day, promise to get in touch but never do. In that instance I feel like a huge bother if I try to contact them first, so I just leave it be.

At my old job I had gone to a company dinner, where I tried being a part of a few conversations (about topics I was really interested in) and was ignored/talked over. I ended up leaving early and no one noticed I was gone. When Monday rolled around, hardly anyone remembered that I was even there.

I just wish someone would look at me, see me, and say "that's my person". Platonic or not. I just don't want to be invisible anymore...