Have you ever been so down and depressed that it’s almost physically painful? Everyday I wake up and wonder, “what am I doing wrong? Why can no one accept me for who I am and want to love me for me?” But I’m not the type of guy who’s mad at other people about. I just want to understand why it’s so hard to be with me. It’s been this way for almost 5 years now. Day by day, I sit at home, or at my job, and just wish I had someone to come home too. Or that I had anyone to tell me they loved me in an non-platonic way. Cause this shit really really fucking hurts. I’ve tried hobbies and movies and music and anything to make me feel like someone who deserves love. But I guess no one on the apps or anyone I meet agrees with that. I can only work on myself for so long…